I should probably get a life…

I sit here on New Years Eve. It’s 9:00pm. I went to dinner with my family and got back around 8:00. I have read everything I want to read online. I have no will to get up and do anything. I experience the sights and sounds of my younger cousin, brother and his friend play Guitar Hero on the Wii. I hear my parents and my cousin’s parents talking and laughing in the distance. This is pretty sad. I have no where to go and nothing to do. I want to be with a certain someone. I want things to be good. I want to be happy. But I sit here. I’ve done this before. All the time. I don’t have many friends (or at least ones who like to hang out with me) so I sit here. I used to have someone who I could spend time with, and who has friends (who I thought were my friends, too) that are spending the night together. But I sit here.

I can’t stand it. I can’t wait to be back at school. Back where I have my friends. Less than two weeks, and I can’t wait. I can’t wait to be back to classes. Back to spending weekends doing nothing… walking down to the river, going to concerts, watching movies. And with my new Nikon D40, it will be even sweeter. This semester is going to be awesome. I just wish I had someone special to share it with, just like I wish I had someone special to spend tonight with. Someone to kiss at the stroke of midnight, someone to share my stories of craziness in Gaige, and someone whom I can be there for.

I know things are never going to be the same, and that I should stop listening to my heart and just be happy with the way things are now. And I guess I have to be- I got myself here.